Gut Punched 👊

 That's the feeling I have. Picture this , an animated character getting punched in the gut, he bends backwards at the mid section,  upper body lurches forward, arms extended forward from the impact. Frozen in time, a caricature representing the sudden realization of one's situation.  Obviously it's my self perception and feelings.  People around me would never guess I currently this way.  I don't walk around projecting poor self esteem.   I don't have low self esteem....... or do I ?  Getting ignored when applying for low level jobs is not a way to build confidence,  I can assure you.  

I was thinking about the women that was eager for me to apply.  It's her words I listened to.  I do not know if the owner is hiring. So I had my self convinced this was a walk in and get hired situation.  Duh me.  I chuckle at myself.  How was I so gullible.  Probably because it's what I wanted to hear. I like easy no hassle results for my time and effort.  After all I spent 10 minutes filling out a paper, yes paper job application and drove another 10 minutes to deliver it and meet with an unknowing Stephanie. I guess I thought she was gonna praise me for saving her from certain bankruptcy and hire me on the spot.  Washing and folding clothes folks, that's the job I applied for.  Running a shift at a self service laundromat.  I'm already a humble person,  I didn't need being brought down a notch.   Enter Gut Punch 👊