I talk too much.

Currently walking treadmill I'm gym, just did back rack workout.  270lb 30 reps.  5 rep sets. Started talking with a guy I know. Convo got on his son being married and active duty Marine on deployment.  I lived that, as an Army paratrooper,  infantry.  

Back in Business.

 I'm going back into the junk hauling business.  I'll offer mulch and gravel deliveries and installs, shed demo, garage clean outs etc.  I did it before and had plenty of work. I then made the transition into full-time lawn service.  I should have stayed with junk hauling.  I have a nice enclosed trailer. I'll get it cleaned out from MY junk collection and offer lite furniture moving , small moving service along with the junk hauling.  I'm looking forward to this new venture.  I can still keep my hands in the crabbing and fishing too.  So follow along my imaginary readers.  This will be fun. 

Gut Punched 👊

 That's the feeling I have. Picture this , an animated character getting punched in the gut, he bends backwards at the mid section,  upper body lurches forward, arms extended forward from the impact. Frozen in time, a caricature representing the sudden realization of one's situation.  Obviously it's my self perception and feelings.  People around me would never guess I currently this way.  I don't walk around projecting poor self esteem.   I don't have low self esteem....... or do I ?  Getting ignored when applying for low level jobs is not a way to build confidence,  I can assure you.  

I was thinking about the women that was eager for me to apply.  It's her words I listened to.  I do not know if the owner is hiring. So I had my self convinced this was a walk in and get hired situation.  Duh me.  I chuckle at myself.  How was I so gullible.  Probably because it's what I wanted to hear. I like easy no hassle results for my time and effort.  After all I spent 10 minutes filling out a paper, yes paper job application and drove another 10 minutes to deliver it and meet with an unknowing Stephanie. I guess I thought she was gonna praise me for saving her from certain bankruptcy and hire me on the spot.  Washing and folding clothes folks, that's the job I applied for.  Running a shift at a self service laundromat.  I'm already a humble person,  I didn't need being brought down a notch.   Enter Gut Punch 👊 

S.M.F.H.

 That about sums it up.  👌 

 Laundromat prospect.  I didnt get a good vibe from the short meeting I had with the owner lady.  She didn't expect me or know I was applying.  I'm not even sure she's hiring.  I was led to believe there's a job opening by a lady that works there.  But her version of things doesn't seem to match with the owners  behavior today.  I don't know.  I reminded the owner, Stephanie that we had spoken a few months ago and I jokingly said I'd like to come work there. We'll she nodded and said "yes, I remember "  in a matter of fact way.  She likes to look me up and down. I noticed this the other 2 times we've spoken. I present well in street clothes. I'm a weight lifter.  Some extra around the middle but also very muscular.  She's probably in her mid 30s, kinda doubtful she finds me attractive.   Me, a 60 year old that dresses in street bum fashion basically.  

She asked if I'm currently working.  I said yes. self employed commercial crabber.  The words self employed seem to mean something bad or negative  to a potential employer.  I'll make a post later what's involved in a typical day of self employed commercial crabbing.   I told her I wanted to put crabbing on the back burner and work a steady job and keep crabbing as a side hustle .  I told her I'm available to start after labor day weekend,  but if she's in a bind I can start sooner.  I told her I have other jobs pending, night work type and I'm really not wanting to do those as 1st choice.  Insert disgruntled grunt here.  Trying to communicate with a female in any social situation is challenging but to a  female potential employer it's especially weird.  I tend to be very direct .  I guess it can be off putting to some.  

I read tea leaves very well. I pay close attention to a person's body language.  Dogs do this on humans all the time. Dogs know your next move before you do.  I practice this on people in public. From a distance I watch there head and eye movement especially.  Stephanie wasn't giving me good body language this morning.  I held my hand out to shake hands as I started to leave , she is unfamiliar with this etiquette.  I remained in place arm extended until she responded in kind.  Most women I've dealt with in positions of authority are quick to shake hands with a man.  Not Stephanie.  Not to me anyway 🤷.  The point is dear imaginary readers, I'm skeptical about this job. 

So,  onto remaining self under employed.  I can post up on mkt. place and do dump runs for people, deliver mulch, gravel etc. Sell crabs of course, until end of September anyway.  I considered going to a temporary employment service for a winter job. That is a definite possibility.  

Cheers to you,  strike number TWO ! I raise my glass of Dollar Tree cranberry juice and salute you for never letting me have an easy way to go.  For being that dog on the side of the road and raising your back leg up extra high to take that piss all over my face during my 2nd attempt at employment.   Cheers Mate. 🍻 

You're gonna work where ?

 Yep, I applied for a job at the laundromat I frequent.  I been kidding around with the lady that works there mornings when I do my laundry.  I told her I need a day job, this commercial crabbing is taking me broke. She convinced me to take a paper job application "home" to fill out. Yeah, she has no clue Im a van dweller even though I park my bad ass Roadtrek in plain view on laundry days.  

I see it like this, it's regular work and pay, it's day shift, usually 2pm to 8pm which allows me time in mornings to crab and fish.  It beats the 3rd shift at Harris Teeter I applied for and haven't heard back yet, 5 days ago.  So it's stupid easy work, customers drop off laundry , it gets weighed then washed and folded.  I think I can handle it.  So I'll drop off application tomorrow,  Sunday am and talk lady that got me to apply. I sure can deal with some regular money coming in.  I met the owner lady a few months ago.  Her and her husband just recently bought the laundromat.  I was joking with her back then about coming to work for her. She seemed open to the idea.  Soooooo all my imaginary readers, that's the big news for today. 

Motivation needed.

 Let's get this shit moving already.  I applied 2 days ago. received the auto response that stated don't call us..... we'll call you. Muah ! You fuckers should be thanking your lucky stars such a decent man applied for your job.  I really don't expect a interview,  but part of me says with today's applicant pool and the shitty 3rd shift I might actually get an interview.  That's my method, apply for jobs with high turnover and my old ass has a chance.  Fuck you society

I'm telling  myself get back into the eeling game and knock on some  more doors. I was actually getting customers that way.  between selling crabs on a small scale and eels to select customers I could do better then the take home pay of 3rd shift stocker and not have to work nights.  I get a case of the ass when I crab and don't sell all my catch. It's a lot of work involved in crabbing.  So when I hit a slump I'm quick to justify finding a easier way to earn money.    Do I want  to be a robot and work in corporate grocery store for wages and have to play the bullshit games of rules and coded every night  ? I would lime that regular pay check for sure but the night work thing ain't easy. Been there and done that when I was young. it sucked back then so it will definitely suck now. 

I need to get my focus back on commercial crabbing and fishing.  Put catfish hoopnets back in water September,  re set eel pots ASAP,  crab 4 days a week . Maybe set the 2-- 200 hook each finfish trotlines I built. Been meaning to do that.  Catfish baby. Eat some ! 

Update On Job Application.

 Completed online employment application.  A few check ✔️ marks in certain boxes seem pretty important. #1, will you submit to drug test, #2 can you work overnights, #3 something else,  weekends and holidays maybe.  So if a person is ok with drug tests and  available at these unpreferred times maybe the chances of getting hired are improved.  That would be me. I don't do drugs so I'll be selling clean piss as a side hustle 💯 .  Days or nights in this case are just days to me. I have no preference on which nights I work.  I'm old. I don't need specific days to do specific things any more.  

I really like the idea of parking my big fat van on the front lot and working overnight.  Then taking my van across the road to bike trail and either napping or getting on my bike and rolling out. It's been a minute or 2 since I rode my bike. 

I envision this schedule of leave work at 7am, park at bike trail 7:05 am.  Now the next 15 hours are mine.  Sleep must happen, bike ride would be nice and of course lift some weights a few days a week.  Fuckin van life baby !!!!  Tell me again why more people aren't doing this ?